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Wednesday, March 25, 2009 by Erin Collins
Shouldn't a girl who's so good inside
Have a matching exterior?
-The Wizard and I
I'm through accepting limits,
'Cuz someone says they're so!
Some things I cannot change,
but 'till I try, I'll never know!
Too long I've been afraid of
losing love, I guess I've lost!
Well, if thats love, it comes at much to high a cost!
-Defying Gravity
The heat of his body still lingered on the bed next to her. The twisted sheets of cotton held the
slightest hint of an indent where...
I don't know what to type, so here's the deal. After a few moments, I'm just going to stop. Stop typing, stop moving, and to stop my mind from reeling. Once I do that, I'm just going to let my fingers flow in short bursts that will make no sense. But you know what? It's going to be the inside of my head.
Ready?
Go.
I wonder what she's laughing at. I shouldn't have bought those Pringles. Dang my ass was cold. I don't think he likes me. I miss him. I miss her. I wish my thoughts would come in clear sentences. I wish...wow. My mind went completely blank. That girl had camel toe on the stage tonight. I wish they would have appreciated Benjamin Button more. Are they really deep thinkers? Did they not get it? Am I really that weird for crying over a few plunked out keys on a piano or seeing a hummingbird?
Blank.
Pills. I hate them. Take with food. Of course I'm going to take them with food. Do not take Aspirin. I would love to curl up on my bed and cry/sleep. She's laughing again. I love her. She's great. I wish I could talk to her. Or him. Or him too. I'm sure they'd understand, but my mind is weird. Obviously. I wish that tree hadn't fallen down back home. I really would love to take pictures of it. I hope he gets accepted...he will. I want cheesecake. I miss seeing the two of them. I love making them smile. Good God I'm a sap. I wonder if anyone else has ever typed just as they were thinking thoughts. Wow. I just corrected myself in my head. That's pathetic. I think I'm failing this semester. Well, failing in the sense I wish I was doing better than C's. I wish I could...no. Wow. I'm really selfish in my head.
Blank.
What was I thinking. Oh. Grades. Back to being selfish. Wow. I think weird. I wish I could tell people my grades. I also wish I'd stop pretending to be so smart just so I won't let people down. My parents are proud, but I'm not. I don't hate myself. He's helped me to not hate myself. Odd.
Blank.
Pringles again. Shouldn't have bought them. I want to design a Pringles container. I should really turn off that puffer thing...the smell is gross.
Blank.
Blank.
I really want to see Wicked. I wish people would surprise me more often. I love surprises. My dad surprised me once. It was awesome. My friends surprised me once before too...that was awesome. I hope my frogs are okay. They need water. I should get a job at Petsmart. Free crickets. I need to finish my extra credit. I hope we make this deadline. Main Entry: silence. Of course that's what I see when I look down below where I'm typing. Woooo...thesaurus'. Thesaurusi? What's the plural of thesaurus? This is getting ridiculous.
Blank.
Girdles? Wow. Where did that come from? God.
Blank.
I go blank when I think about God. I miss that part of my life. I can't believe I'm typing all of this and planning to post it online. Blog or Facebook? I miss God. This is so emo. I wish he wouldn't have been absent the day I read my poem. He would've walked in at the perfect time.
Blank.
She's wicked. Now I'm singing. Can't bring me down. Green. Flying. Carpets. Aladdin? Can I call you Al, or maybe just Din? How about Laddy? I'm quoting movies in my head. Are my roommates having sex? My hand is starting to fall asleep. I need to fall asleep. Can't bring me down. Does anyone hear me when I scream? Dang that was corny. I'm glad no one can hear my thoughts...so I write them down instead. Logical. Selfish. Two words to describe me maybe? I feel like Kate Winslet in Titanic. Jack.
Nope. Shoelaces. Pretty dresses. Dancing. I wish I could dance well. And sing. I love both. I miss tango. I want to tango.
Blank.
Wow. I'm done.
Have a matching exterior?
-The Wizard and I
I'm through accepting limits,
'Cuz someone says they're so!
Some things I cannot change,
but 'till I try, I'll never know!
Too long I've been afraid of
losing love, I guess I've lost!
Well, if thats love, it comes at much to high a cost!
-Defying Gravity
The heat of his body still lingered on the bed next to her. The twisted sheets of cotton held the
slightest hint of an indent where...
I don't know what to type, so here's the deal. After a few moments, I'm just going to stop. Stop typing, stop moving, and to stop my mind from reeling. Once I do that, I'm just going to let my fingers flow in short bursts that will make no sense. But you know what? It's going to be the inside of my head.
Ready?
Go.
I wonder what she's laughing at. I shouldn't have bought those Pringles. Dang my ass was cold. I don't think he likes me. I miss him. I miss her. I wish my thoughts would come in clear sentences. I wish...wow. My mind went completely blank. That girl had camel toe on the stage tonight. I wish they would have appreciated Benjamin Button more. Are they really deep thinkers? Did they not get it? Am I really that weird for crying over a few plunked out keys on a piano or seeing a hummingbird?
Blank.
Pills. I hate them. Take with food. Of course I'm going to take them with food. Do not take Aspirin. I would love to curl up on my bed and cry/sleep. She's laughing again. I love her. She's great. I wish I could talk to her. Or him. Or him too. I'm sure they'd understand, but my mind is weird. Obviously. I wish that tree hadn't fallen down back home. I really would love to take pictures of it. I hope he gets accepted...he will. I want cheesecake. I miss seeing the two of them. I love making them smile. Good God I'm a sap. I wonder if anyone else has ever typed just as they were thinking thoughts. Wow. I just corrected myself in my head. That's pathetic. I think I'm failing this semester. Well, failing in the sense I wish I was doing better than C's. I wish I could...no. Wow. I'm really selfish in my head.
Blank.
What was I thinking. Oh. Grades. Back to being selfish. Wow. I think weird. I wish I could tell people my grades. I also wish I'd stop pretending to be so smart just so I won't let people down. My parents are proud, but I'm not. I don't hate myself. He's helped me to not hate myself. Odd.
Blank.
Pringles again. Shouldn't have bought them. I want to design a Pringles container. I should really turn off that puffer thing...the smell is gross.
Blank.
Blank.
I really want to see Wicked. I wish people would surprise me more often. I love surprises. My dad surprised me once. It was awesome. My friends surprised me once before too...that was awesome. I hope my frogs are okay. They need water. I should get a job at Petsmart. Free crickets. I need to finish my extra credit. I hope we make this deadline. Main Entry: silence. Of course that's what I see when I look down below where I'm typing. Woooo...thesaurus'. Thesaurusi? What's the plural of thesaurus? This is getting ridiculous.
Blank.
Girdles? Wow. Where did that come from? God.
Blank.
I go blank when I think about God. I miss that part of my life. I can't believe I'm typing all of this and planning to post it online. Blog or Facebook? I miss God. This is so emo. I wish he wouldn't have been absent the day I read my poem. He would've walked in at the perfect time.
Blank.
She's wicked. Now I'm singing. Can't bring me down. Green. Flying. Carpets. Aladdin? Can I call you Al, or maybe just Din? How about Laddy? I'm quoting movies in my head. Are my roommates having sex? My hand is starting to fall asleep. I need to fall asleep. Can't bring me down. Does anyone hear me when I scream? Dang that was corny. I'm glad no one can hear my thoughts...so I write them down instead. Logical. Selfish. Two words to describe me maybe? I feel like Kate Winslet in Titanic. Jack.
Nope. Shoelaces. Pretty dresses. Dancing. I wish I could dance well. And sing. I love both. I miss tango. I want to tango.
Blank.
Wow. I'm done.
